AQUATIC CENTER ICE CREAM CONE spring 1991

Whenever I feel
like a fresh
Spring filly foal
never bridled
never rode
them's the times
I like to stroll

All awake
and aroused
I want loving
loving now

Licking licking
melting
dripping

wet wet
where's the set?
Let's be Lovers
newly met.

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therefore will i trust you always though i may seem lost FEBRUARY 17 , 2006

MY HEART IT BREAKS
KNOWING YOU LAY
SO ILL
ALONE
IN HOSPITAL

MY PRAYERS
ENTREAT
SAINT RITA OUR LADY
AND JESUS
THEY
INTERCEDE

A CANDLE IS LIT
UNTIL RESTORED
YOU GET
GOD BLESS AND SAVE
MY MISCREANT KNAVE

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BUMMER IN THE SUMMER 1ST draft of..... LOVES HUNGRY....I'M VITTELS .....THAT'S WHAT LOVES COME FOR from 6-2005

Tunnel of Love
highway to pain
it whispers
then hollers
now echoes
my name

Ignore it
endless
relentless
weeks of forever

walks in the rain

Deplore it
dig in deep
hide
from time

Love hammering clawing
comes
creeping back

For months
years
decades
he follows

His tongue
is music
lyrically bent

around sensual entreaties
of la la la's
loving promises

spewed bijou
through an aperture
too radiant for truth to embrace


a haunting
abhorrent abstraction
sweetness of false

This bitter elixir
a potion
which tricks

remember the lessons
this pained past
did inflict

This fraudulent
obsession
decline
and deflect

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CHILDISH FANTASY ADIEU 11-19-88

THIS VOYAGE BEGAN
THROUGH DOORS
I HAD LONGED
TO ENTER
BUT UNTIL YOU
NO GUIDE
NO HINT
NO DIRECTOR
YOU HEARD THE CRIES
FROM AFAR
OR SO YOU SAID
STILL A YEAR OF TEARS
WENT UNNOTICED
THOSE:
HELD THE WEIGHT
OF REVOLUTIONS IN ALICES HEAD
AS SHE FELL DEEPER
ROUND AND ABOUT
MIRRORED ON ALL SIDES
TO THE MOST AGONIZING
TEA PARTY TO WHICH
SHE HAD EVER ARRIVED ...
INVITED OR NOT.
THEY SWEPT HER AWAY
SAT HER DOWN...STILL HER HEAD SPUN
A SPOT OF TEA?
HAVE AN ENORMOUS HELPING OF SORROW
THEN JUST BEYOND ALL THIS UNWELCOME KNOWLEDGE
YOU MAY USE THE KEY, IT PROMISES AN EXISTENCE
WHICH YOU CONTROL.
YOU WILL BE FAR FROM
THE CARELESS, SELF ABSORBED,
TIFFANY SHROUDED BROTHERS
YOU FOLLOWED INTO THIS WORLD.
HERE, IF YOU FALL OR SHOULD YOU BRUISE
THE FACES THAT RUN TO YOUR AID
WILL BE THOSE OF STRANGERS..
THEY COME TO COMFORT THE PAIN
THEY HAVE SEEN YOU ENDURE.
THEIR EYES DO NOT BLINK
NOT FOR 11 MONTHS, NOR 1/1000 OF A SHUTTER SPEED
THESE ARE PEOPLE OF A SENSITIVE NATURE
THEY DO NOT STAND BEHIND THE LINE
AWAITING THE OPPORTUNITY
TO TOSS GASOLINE ON THE FLAME
NO. THEY COME TO WRAP YOU IN A CLOAK
WOVEN OF COLORFUL HEALING CLOTH.
NO FIRE CAN BURN NO DIAMOND CUT NO LOOK DISTURB
JUST LOVE, NOW HEAL.

BI-LOCATION ....moonlight hauser & venice 1997

I love you
you & me
but you I believe
see it differently
that's alright
we need not meet
never write
never speak

Still our souls
they dance
awake or asleep
in synchronicity
behind locked key
seasonally

And there you are
here me too
suddenly bi-located
transported
dancing in the cell
we two

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PLAIN TRUTH JUXTAPOSES VAIN GLORY 12-25-2004 AS FATHER MATTHEW RETURNS TO GHANA

You are tall
A giant among men
You are beautiful
A delight to behold
You are loved
You are beloved
You are young
Forever young
You are my priest
You are my father

BUTTER......JUNE 1989

Good job indeed
Or poor genetic
Potential from the start
Perhaps just butter
A nice dairy product
From a country boy's
Point of view. The gift
Of the beauteous
Wide eyed lo-lo
With teats full, aching
Requiring regular and
Timely milking. The potential
Of her commodity is unending
The whey to cheese, or the cream
After careful separation
May be paddeled submissively
Into a butter state.From wet
To firm until taken in the mouth.
A seduction of the olfactory
Senses occur which then
Succumb pitifully to its sweet
Taste and texture. Melting from
Firm to flaccid, Left dribbling its
Honey soaked sweetness through
Tiny crumpet holes.

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PADRE PIO

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FOR FATHER MATTHEW ......6/13/2004.....SOMETIMES

Sometimes...
In order to get in touch with oneself
One must turn outside
SOMETIMES ...
In an attempt to taste the honey
One must be stung by the bee
Sometimes ...
In order to know
The love and reason of life
An acrid season or several are endured
That the wounds
From the thorns might heal
The scourging at the post
Not yet complete
So long so sad
And others tears
Not yet wept nor dreamt
So inside outside aren't I yet?
2006 remember to pray for me father... ghana's so far away

EXORCISM......JUNE 2, 1990 SAN CLEMENTE

Sentence complete
Speaking again
You reckon an "I Love You"
In your hypnotic schwa
Is enough to stop
Tip and trip the world on end?
At one time it did

A year given to crawling on four
Hearts blood dripping
Plasmacytes
Pounding pounding splitting my head
Spinning Jenny,,,clarity rare

Twelve months later
Objectivity in disrepair
Your words are webs
Entangling my head
Your attempt to drag the carnage
Into your spirit
Vampire lair

Pirates won Injuns nothin'
Sea of pirates
Now who's runnin it?
Still the fans watch and ask
"Are you back with her yet?"
Don't you know darlin' Po
That was then
Now on with the show.

Love is nothing to play with
It's a grenade without a pin
"If it's destiny you'll accept it"?
I won't.

Collect your weapons
Pocket your harp
An audience awaits you
Let's don't even
Start.

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MAZE 1989

I don't like me
They
Certainly couldn't
Disconnected
Like
Separated
By maze frequencies
That reflect
Obtuse parallel realities
and surely
The world goes on
I need the wind
Dream
The romance
Of thundered lightning
Quick in vast flat fields
Beneath moon and star
Excelsis Deo

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LOVE'S HUNGRY...I'M VITTELS. THAT'S WHAT LOVE'S COME FOR...JUNE 6,2005

Tunnel of love highway to pain
Sweet whispers, curt hollers, eternal echoes
Repeating my name. Ignore it
This path's often perilous
A relentless maze continuous loop
Offering nothing
More than endless
Emotional walks in the rain
Deplore it
Dig in deep hide from time
Constant hammering clawing
Insistent nerves serve piercing
Disabling burns pain so severe
Reeks havoc...Lord help me
It's breaking my neck
Sure as your born Love
Comes creeping back
First upright then gallops
Finally Love slithers through trees
Love's back........ determined
No remorse for before
Love's hungry I'm vittels
That's what Love's come for
The beating...the pounding
Is swelling my brain
The past...the lessons.....
Remember the pain?
A haunting abhorrent abstraction
Sweetness of false
A bitter elixir a potion a trick
Try to remember
With times passage
Often it's easy
To forget

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FALLING 1991

It has been
My most
Grievious fault
To repeatedly
Choose

(men?)
Who enter
(entertain?)
Public
(publicity?)

In an
'about face'
OR Show me
How baddd! you are:

Imaginary figments
Their minds
Designed to brillance

The idles
(idols?)
The common place folk
and
The ushers
Who interpret
The thieves

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TOUCHING 1996

Skin as soft
as a touching
love Song
your scent
lyrically
poetic
you were
a dream
I embodied
Into a vision
and fashioned as
Love

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MAY 4-5 2004

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TOTAL ECLIPSE OF THE MOON MAY 4-5 2004

Tip to toe
Length to low
Ummmmn
Ummmmn
Ummmmmmnnnnn
No interference
Undistracted
Intimate embraced reunion
"Wanna cuddle?"
"ok"
Serene
Somewhere in the valley

MISERY JAN. 23 06

Misery likes misery
Misery lingers
Don't want no company
Hard to reach

Misery can't hardly
Stand him 'Self'
It's only
'Fancy' the dog
That prevents him
Vanishing like an elf

Misery say:
"Don't compliment me"
I say
"The Waldorf was sublime"

"But 74
In Reel
To Real time
You sucked"

He likes that
"Best thing you've said"
Says he.

"It's true
say I.
don't trip
and
don't hang up".

I just hate that!

THE LOVING......5-14-96

The loving
For so long
Was infused with spiritual
Signifigance
For me

Recognizing now
It was little more
Than a biological
Function to you
Has transformed my
Interpretation
Of it
Entirely

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